so this is the way i've been feeling lately: i find my eyes scanning for that one face that will stick out from the rest and pull me in and never let me go.. but it's missing unless i look towards my own kind and go back to my unnatural lust. then there is a rush of feeling and wonder and i'm bursting with things i would love to do and places i would love to kiss and taste and i'm falling into them and then i look back towards the "correct" choice and i lose all feeling. it stops. the color fades and my world goes black and white. there is nothing.